Day 27: When you aren't sure which way is brave.

There comes a time when you know you need to do the brave thing. You want to do the brave thing. But you aren't quite sure which way is more brave. 

Typically this occurs at a crossroads, a point of decision. 

I don't know about you but I sure don't like decision making. Especially when it touches the things I value, the things that are close to my heart. I'm learning not to let decisions paralyze me but it is a daily, arduous process. 

A few years ago I was at a crossroads. I had 2 very good job options presented to me. Both good dream jobs. Both very unique and had the potential to take me down very opposite paths.

Decisions are hard. Decisions with 2 very good options are even harder. I looked long and hard at both options, my analytical brain buzzing and worrying about the what it's. Both were good, maybe even great options. I prayed and heard nothing. I waited but felt indifferent. I was terrified of choosing wrongly. I was terrified of missing the best. 

I shared my predicament with a close friend. Knowing my heart and my habit of fear, she chose wise words. 

Which one takes more faith??

There wasn't an easy answer. To uncover it required a time of stillness, listening and reflecting. 

I then reached a point where a decision needed to be made. I did not have a Divine epiphany or magical moment where I just knew. I just picked the one that required the most faith. And you know what? That same day I received a phone call informing me that the job I was most interested in was no longer available. I was shocked, I was confused, but I had an answer. I just got to it in a way that made it irrefutable. I took the other job with complete confirmation and peace. It was absolutely the right decision for me, as it opened the door for me to shepherd the students I share life with now. 

Sometimes answers come as a response to a step taken in faith, before you know. Brave doesn't have the luxury of waiting until clarity comes. Brave looks for the direction requiring more faith because it knows that there's no other way to live. The brave way, the way of faith is what pleases the Father. The brave way, the way of faith yields a life well-lived. An eternally significant life. When you aren't sure which way is brave, choose the way that takes more faith.