Do you ever lay awake and replay a scenario on repeat, wondering what that person could think of you now after what you said? Do you worry (a lot) when someone is or could be upset with you? Have difficulty making decisions (even small ones) without consulting an entourage? Do you feel guilty when you say no?
Me too. Or at least I did. But I'm finding that living to please people never did anything good for me. It has never made me a better friend, sister, daughter or servant of Christ. So it's time to remove the alias that people pleasing hides behind, name it, and start prying it's little controlling talons off of my identity.
Are you with me?
There are so many possible origins of people pleasing- hurt from the past, family habit, insecurity or simply the desire to be liked. Sometimes it's helpful to look back and pinpoint where it all started.
*Insert small, shameless plug for solid, Biblical, professional counseling. Seriously, we could all benefit from it at least one season of our lives. But that's a whole separate post that I won't go into today.*
Finding the "when" is a helpful piece to the mosaic of change.
Now find the "why". Why is it that I shrivel up and withdraw when I sense that I don't have all of the approval I need? The desire to please people in itself is not wrong! In fact, people pleasers are often some of the most intuitive individuals who tend to be highly invested in their relationships. It's when this desire morphs into a larger beast, fed by good intentions and ignorance. My guess is that the "why" is that approval has suction cupped itself to identity. Significance is now only found in affirmation, and when the well of affirmation runs dry, significance dwindles. My friends, if you share the faith in Christ that I do you know your worth and value have been established once and for all for you, right? A worth that will never tarnish or fade away. And it has nothing to do with the work you did. So why are we striving so hard?
Now to the"how". How is the undo'ing of people pleasing. I am still in the "how" and I invite you into my journey. What I have found is that approval addicts need fuel. And like all fuel, you get to choose which kind to fill up with. Fuel that's most readily available is the kind that also feeds insecurity, fear and worry. It's the kind that tells you to agree with popular opinion, to walk in the chains of indecision. Choose this fuel and the people pleaser in you will eat its fill and grow. The good fuel, the hearty kind that takes work, is the fuel of truth.
Truth is the most powerful weapon in our fight for identity.
The best place to find truth (not the 'whatever feels right' truth, but the ancient, transformative truth) can always be found in Scripture. Here are some truth to fuel our recovery:
Galatians 1:10 For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.
Psalm 27:1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
So. Are you still with me? There's a lot here and the undo'ing is quite a bit of work. Is it worth the struggle? I 100% believe so. Yes. And here's why:
People pleasers forsake freedom. Freedom to make decisions, live with peace, and bask in the complete acceptance Christ offers. Recovering people pleasers start to unlock those chains. They say no and yes without apology. They make wise and confident decisions. They understand the the difference between needing to apologize and needing to let go. They identify unhealthy self-expectations and embrace their unique, God-given personality. They open up and say yes to peace. Most importantly, they loosen the grip people pleasing once had on identity. They are freed to give, receive, and love the way they were designed to.
I want this. And I'm pretty certain you do too. Let's keep recovering together.
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